Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Home sweet home

Assalamualaikum & Hello!

How are you? Hope that you're in the best of health, insyaAllah...

Well, if you're feeling blue, cheer up, because holiday is around the corner! #CNY

I'm on my holiday now though haha... Yeah, arrived safe & sound from Kuantan after 12 hours journey, phew... How do I did it you asked? Well to tell you the truth, I'm used to it. Sure, sometimes I felt too beat or wished that I could just take a plane but since that's too fancy of an option for me, I just have to make do then. 

So, home is good, homey as as homey as it should be. It's very sunny here *just the way I like it*. There's more rabbits since my last time here, & there's also a big fat hamster, haha, this must be my Sister's or my Dad's *yeah, no kidding* Oh yeah, I've been searching for Nowi & the kittens but couldn't seem to find it anywhere. Instead, there are these two adult cats which I've never seen before making themselves comfortable on the couch. I was like, "Hey, do I know you?..." 

Anyway, today is kinda like my rest day, you know. All I do is sleep & watch movies, haha. Well, that's what holiday is all about, isn't it? Wait, those are what I do everyday actually, haha.

Let me get back to you ok? Until then, Happy Chinese New Year!

Bye, for now.

Apparently, this new cat isn't into selfies as much as I am...

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Drama...

Assalamualaikum & Hello!

How are you guys enjoyin' ur weekend?

Well, I'm spending most of it by watching this new series that I'm sooo obsessed with, ever heard of Gotham? Well, if you're a fan of Batman (I am!), I'm sure you'll love it. Oh, please remind me to write about it here one day, ok?

So today, I spend most of the time by being angry at people, haha, not a good thing, I know, but tell me kalau dah sampai lebih kurang dua jam locked out from my own room dengan towel, siapa yang tak marah kan, haha... & yeah, twice, haha... I was so angry that I was almost gonna lash out tapi bila fikir2 balik, I'm not gonna let myself say or do something stupid that I'll regret later. If you find yourself being really angry or mad at someone, it always help to walk out of the situation by doing something else instead of letting yourself be consumed by the perasaan you know, so that's what I did. *applause applause*

Anyhow, I was not sure that I'm gonna be back home for the Chinese New Year #cny. Yeah, 'cause we originally were going to have only four days break from Thursday to Sunday, so, dengan tak beli tiketnya lagi & with all the traffic jam on the highway that will be almost 100% happening, instead of spending most of the time by being miserable on the bus more than at home with family, I rather stay.

But you know what, some unexpected events happened yesterday at work (a bad one unfortunately), so, the faculty has decided to give us more days for the holiday! Instead of Thursday, we'll be having it from Monday, cheers to that. Time tu macam mixed feelings, because being in the final year students, kejar-ing the requirements & all, clinical sessions are sooo important for us to be missed! But bila fikir yang last break pun tak sempat balik sebab kena pergi the elective posting, somehow I feel yang rumah kat Kedah tu dah memanggil2 menyeru2 untuk balik. Oh yeah, & I miss my parents & adik2 sooo much, so yeah, I'm going home after all. But, I still don't get myself a ticket home, I don't even tell my parents yet, haha. Maybe I'll go buy it tomorrow for the night trip either Sunday or Monday.

So, don't miss me? haha... #sayNOtoValentines #kelabsingle

Bye for now. Happy CNY!...

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Krisis...

Assalamualaikum & hello!

How are you? Hope that you are doing fine. I miss you guys, so that's why I wrote this.

Just to tell you, I am not doing so good these past few days.

I always thought when we are in pain, it's better to swallow all of it, to not admitting it to yourself, or at least to not mutter it out loud, because somehow by doing those, it will somehow let you be consumed & affected by the things itself, which I don't like, because I am gonna let myself be affected by it. But they say, the first thing to do to get help is admitting (at least to yourself) that there is something wrong...

Friends, is it normal for a person my age to still be thinking about how would I like to see myself, those who-am-I kind of stuff? Is it normal for me to still figuring who I want to be & things that I wish I did? Is it normal to still be uncertain of how my future is gonna turn out?

Please, doakan yang baik-baik untuk saya. I'm gonna go figure out my future. #gelap

Bye for now.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Nah, surat cinta!

Hello there!

Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it?

Last update pun bulan 11 tahun lepas, haha. Boleh lagi tak nak wish "Happy New Year?..." #toolittletoolate

How are you guys? Hope that you're blessed with the best of health, insyaAllah. Oyeah, I'm fine too, thanks, haha.

What has been keeping me busy... It's like everyday I do prosthodontics...hah...

So, I just finished my end of block 2 exams. Not much to talk about really. Sebab dah selalu kena exam, jadi setiap kali ada exam, dah numb, dah tak rasa cuak, takut tak dapat jawab or whatever, haha. Teringat lagi dulu zaman sekolah, kalau nak exam tu, bukan main nervous, paling teruk sampai blank bila nak jawab soalan, sebab punyalah takut tak dapat jawab sampai lupa habis semua benda yang diulangkaji, haha. Zaman2 asasi dulu pun, ada jugak sket2 nervous bila nak exam, time tu mula kenal dengan term 'nervous diarrhea'. Mula2 bila dengar ada kawan yang went thru that, rasa macam, "Wow, macam tu sekali?... #sarcasm" because at that time it seems to me that it doesn't make sense. Tapi, bila diri sendiri kena baru tau how inconvenient it acually is. 

#WERK

Mata helang tak? Spot me!
Nowadays, I don't experience those kind of stuff anymore, I don't know. I guess it depends anyway. I mean, it depends on how big the exam is. This end-block exam is not a big exam actually so I guess that's why. I mean come one, I have to sit for exams once in three month so tell me how that it is not numbing me already, haha. Persoalan kat sini sekarang, kenapa dah banyak kali exam pun, bodoh jugak, hahaha. #okeh #takbaik


So, supposedly we are having a one week break post-exam, but unfortunately, I'm not gonna be able to spend the whole week in Kedah. Sebabnya all of us have to go for this elective posting in Melaka or Johor. Hah. It's gonna take up until Thursday, so I haven't yet decided whether to still go to Kedah after that or just head back to Kuantan, because we are starting the new block next Monday. I have to settle some works some more which include the preparation for the mock-up research presentation that will be coming up in next two weeks, a set of denture to be ready for try-in & a lot of studying and revision. & I don't know how will I tell Mom that I maybe not be able to go back *teary eyes* . Guess I can't fuss much though being a final year student now, can I...hmm...

Anyway, I still haven't figured out what to bring for tomorrow. Well, since I will not be able to have a proper break, might as well consider this elective posting as a getaway then. Dari semalam, asyik Google tempat2 makan yang best kat Melaka, haha... #nampaktakpermainandia

So, lemme get back to you after?

Take care, 
Mr. H.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Aku tanya "Apa Khabar..."

Bismillah.
Assalamualaikum & good morning everybody. 
Hope that whoever is reading this is in the best of health, amin.

So, I started to write again. Hah... 

I just actually finished my end-of-block 1 examination, 8 subjects altogether, yeah. Put some efforts into it & I feel quite OK in answering. I mean, I don't leave the space empty, haha, that's the important thing. Man, I feel stupid if I have to return the question paper empty, I did it before & I didn't like the way I feel afterwards, so, I don't want to do it again, haha. Anyway...

Life is just OK now. I'm in my final year now & insyaAllah, I'll be graduating in just about 9 months time & God knows how time flies! I'm still struggling with my clinical requirements, you know, dentures to be constructed, tooth to be canal-treated & minor oral surgery to be done. I'm not even close in finishing any of it, so, I'm very worried about it. This past 3 months has not been really great or productive. My aim was to not let any clinic passed by without doing any treatment, but you know, sometimes this thing is beyond us. Patient cancelling appointment in the last minute, children crying or just shutting their mouth during treatment, dentures need to be redo & many more. May Allah ease insyaAllah...

Some of my dear friends who started dentistry in the same batch as me have graduated last month. I had the chance to go see them during the convocation. Although it was very tiring & took up my weekend, it wasn't really happy because I was sooo genuinely happy for them! Oh, I am just sooo proud & I know that they are going to give 'em hell outside, hahaha. Convocation is always an inspiring thing to me, so, being there was a good thing for my motivation in my study, oyeah.


We have to move in to new building here in the campus. It's been about 2 weeks or so now. I'm quickly adjusting to it but somehow it feels like I'm back in high school again. Sebabnya, sebelum ni tinggal kat single room & sekarang kat bangunan baru ni, kena tinggal 4 orang satu bilik, jadi, macam tak best sket hahaha. Tak ada lah, sebelum ni I can just make noises & stay up late or whatever, tapi sekarang, kena fikir untuk tak sakitkan hati roommates & so. I don't think I'm good in keeping people happy, because if I'm started to be really concern about it, I just let it consume me too much, so, haha. It's complicated right, but, that's life, dude! Anyway... I'm really gonna miss my old room. There's sooo much memories made in that room. That was pretty much my 'cave' whenever I'm feeling sad or anything. So, it's one of those places that I'm definitely gonna remember along the way.

Nak meninggalkan Horcrux kat sini ala-Voldemort boleh? Haha...


I make some new friends & I'm really happy about it. It's a big deal for me because somehow these past few years, I tend to push people away & only let in people who are very close to me, of fear of being hurt or not understood. But I learned now that that's not always the case, because it turns out, people who are the closest to you who will actually hurts you the most. Funny huh? But that doesn't happen with everybody though, so, no worries haha... Anyway, I like to know people, to listen to their stories, to see how they see the world, so, knowing somebody new is definitely an interesting thing for me. It's just awesome to know that people can be so similar to us as they are so different, so yeah, hope I am good enough in keeping them as well.

Oh yeah, please check out my IG (hanihborhan), I put on new pictures almost everyday haha, so, don't worry about I'm possibly being dormant there haha. Somehow, I prefer IG now compared to Blogger/Facebook/Twitter now to express whatever I'm feeling sometimes. I guess the saying 'a picture worth a thousand words' does have some sense to it actually.

Signing off-