Saturday, March 3, 2012

Denial.

Is when you are unfit & unhealthy but you can't find the courage to admit it, thus making yourself do things that make you become even unhealthier to cover up 'your guilt inside', making you don't change any of your bad eating & no exercising habit.

Is when you go shopping, buy clothes with several sizes down because you think you're that thin & can fit into those forever & believe that you can change your 'bad lifestyle habit' that you've attempted to change many times before which apparently never work because you don't walk your talk & close your one eye on your 'awared-weaknesses'.

Is when you somehow deep down inside realized that you're in a troubled marriage/relationship, but still let yourself foolishly believe in the 'unsolvables', making you blindly scared & afraid to stand up for yourselves, staying in 'that' kind of 'condition', torturing & 'eating' you inside.

Is when you're a superstar, a big 'thing', an important person, a public figure, a well-known persona that had been dormant in a period of time, after your 'spotlight days', hiding somewhere 'self-secluded' from the people, because of something bad that had happen to you that makes you don't believe that you can do it again when actually, you've really did it once before.

Is when you're trying very hard to show to people around you that 'how independant & happy you are on you own', when in actuality, you're just too afraid & ashamed to admit how lonely you are, because even without people knowing 'the real deal', you already feeling pathetic on yourself.

Is when you're cursing people, teasing them in the negative, unconstructive & uncomforted way about how down they get when it comes to their insecurities, when at the same time, deep down inside heart, you know that you yourself get down on the thought of your insecurities.

Is when you simply ignore, closed your ears & shout back to the people who give you some manner advices, not because those things addressed are not true or some mere blind fun accusation, but simply because of the fact that you hate it when some people can read you & 'may know you more than you want them to know'.






10 comments:

  1. penafian, jgn di layan sgt...
    sampai bile2 tak kan habis.. :)

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    1. Yup, betoi... My point dlm this post is that sometimes, denial boleh buat kita ni statik je which isn't good...

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  2. Denial... Really bad ... X healthy la. We dont face reality... We afraid to face it... Kan kan??

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  3. Kakak realise recently when the doctor said that kakak lack of exercise. The moment doctor taken the blood for testing - dark red colour shown that kakak needs an exercise. Its true that sometimes actually needs others to open our eyes wider and heart to be more flexible....

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    1. Kan Kak?... Bagi saya, kadang2 denial ada bawak kebaikan pada kita contohnya kan bila seseorang tu ditimpa penyakit yg macam takada harapan nak sembuh, kebanyakan orang pasrah je dgn keadaan macamtu & dah putus harap pada Allah & diri sendiri. Dlm kes ni kan, bagi saya, kalau pesakit macamtu kuat & punya semangat yg tinggi untuk terus hidup, in other words, dia deny keadaan dia yg sakit takada harapan tu, dan terus lalui hidup macam biasa, & tak mustahil oleh sebab denial dia t'hadap penyakit tu m'buatkan penyakit dia tu hilang...

      However, bagi saya, tak banyak sebenaqnya denial2 yg positif macamni, mainly banyak yg negatif je...Hmm

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  4. hey hanihborhan !kini sy bertuka url blog..klau sudi singgahla.. :D

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  5. kadang menafi utk sedapkan hati jer.. haish

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